there is no way to explain it. it just is. i am glad it is, because it is getting me to the place where i need to be,  even though i might not want to be there.

bumped into a friend yesterday: "Erin!" she says with a smile. "We were just talking about how wonderful you are!" ......that will carry me through.

As much as we all want this time to be over, the late nights, no sleep, drinking absurd amounts of coffee and soda, eating so poorly. I don't think any of us want all this time we have to spend together to be over. This time is so precious, because it will soon be over, there will be no more late, sleepless nights in Yamawaki, and that is so hard to grasp onto.

I take out my fears of graduating and "growing up" onto other people, really grasping onto them for safety and comfort, especially when they're providing the attention needed to divert my mind from such things. Thanks for the dopamine overdose, hopefully I have learned from it.