Acceptance into the 8 week Summer Business Bridge program at PhilU, still waiting to hear about the MS. Which will make all the difference.
The reality of moving.. in a month, to a new city, new people, new smells, new sights and sounds, new tastes, new ambitions, new worries.. is all so exciting. I hope that Philadelphia will let me love it as much as I'd like to. It brings so much hope and light and energy. and it brings a closeness with a best friend that I have longed for years to have again. which is probably the best added bonus i could ever ask for.
Home, is still home. It really never gets old. Going home is just, the best, the best thing ever. Its a huge safety net. A familiar place, where everything is known, nothing is unknown. Which is also the reason to leave.. to find the unknown and make it known, to move on to another unknown..
2 weeks and 2 days until the show. My stomach turns as I write that. The show just keeps getting more real everyday. Ive seen it all go down before, but never had I put myself in the place of the nervous, excited, anxious, frantic designer backstage, giving the models their cue, and hitting the spotlight once it was all over. Those 3 minutes, that go by like 3 seconds. The fact that that will be me, and those 3 seconds will be mine, is becoming all to real.
I will be fine. Everything will be fine. Im at a good place, I have good hard working people to surround me and encourage me, and re-assure me that my menswear jacket, that i hate, looks great. I am getting more resilient each day, and i see just how much i have changed in not only 4 years, but 4 months.
oh how i love you so :)
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