I have never been proud of myself before. never REALLY proud of myself. that feeling is so so overwhelming and i am so lucky and happy to have felt it. to feel so accomplished, for what I did, with direction from many inspiring people. I made everything happen, all ME all MY work. that is something I am so glad to have experienced and to have accomplished.


Philadelphia brings so much promise. Promise of NEW. NEW NEW NEW. I am so ready to grab it all and RUN RUN RUN.


It has been quite an adjustment to lay in bed for an hour or so, before actually going to sleep, watching tv, reading, editing photos, ect. to have TIME to do WHATEVER I want. I am someone who always needs to be busy, so my plan for the day always get thrown off by my need to make plans and see people, because i know what would happen if I was in my room alone packing ALL day, people drive me, inspire me, fill me with ideas, visions, curiosities. I get trapped in my own head way to easy if I am not with people, learning from their lives, actions, words, ect. I thrive on it. 


I always form a vision of what I am about to embark on.. a picture of what my room will look like, what the classrooms will look like, my street, ect. I always make up visions and sequences in my head, of how things will go, or how I will feel. I am filled with wonderment of what my new journey will hold. WHO i will meet, WHAT i will do, HOW i will adjust. all so scary, but so exciting. at moments i wish so badly that i could go home, and relax, and be comfortable.. comfortable because i know whats around me. but as I said in a post a while ago, the unknown is so exciting, it's so exhilarating and I am ready to welcome it into my life.


xo


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