i am still lost.

in 11 days I will be graduating college and moving to a new city. in 12 days I will be starting classes, all over again. as if graduating isn't enough to handle.. how could i not be lost?

May 1st, 2010 is a day that I have been anticipating since my first year at Lasell in 2006. I still cannot believe it is over. Having free time is a new concept and I'm trying to fill it with as much as possible, although sometimes it ends up being long naps, which is okay because I have yet to make up for all the lost sleep this past weekend.

Aside from my nausea and dazed look the entire day, the show went as good as I could have ever imagined it would. I was fully prepared to tackle every aspect of it and couldn't be happier for all the hard work I put in early on because it made it that much easier for me. My models we're not on time.. they we're early, and so willing to do what ever I needed them to, everyone made my day so smooth. There was so much chaos going on behind my back, that was all taken care of without me knowing until two days later, and I was shocked, because I normally catch on, but I was so focused on what I was doing I didn't have time to look around. There's no doubt in my mind that I had some very amazing people watching over me that day.

I have a crazy bucket of flowers, filled with so much love and support, they have been keeping me company, as I have no sewing or pattern making to do that anymore. This room has only gotten bigger and more empty since the show, so filling it with lively flowers has been a blessing.

The thought of tomorrow is killing me, my mental strength is at an all time low. I could really use a wish right now.