If you believe in me, I might just want to spend some time with you again.

my exact feelings as of late, like i'm up against a wall. yet there's room for me to move around the wall i just need some help. i need something new, fresh, exciting, stimulating. i think my anxiety about my line and about my acceptance or rejection from grad school/jobs is slowly eating away at me. as like everything else in life, i keep those worries inside. so i am trying to let them out now. my doctor will be pleased with this.

i have stopped biting my nails.. HOORAY. only took 21 years, god dammit. so now i paint them pretty colors all the time. YES! stress reliever. this is the base of a new painting i am starting.

thank you to becki for coming to the rescue this weekend and spending some quality time with me, and getting me out into the beautiful city i am so close too. it was such a good re-fresher. i feel out of the funk that I was stuck in and am ready to sew my fingers off! ...juuust kidding.

happy 22nd maris.

wish this could be everyday. <3 miss you both.