she walks, with that staggered rhythm that most adopt when walking briskly with a suitcase. heartbeats getting faster, steps getting slower. anticipating yet avoiding what the next down escalator could hold. to her dismay, yet expectation, it held nothing.

nothing.

I have not finished a book in 4 years. Front to back, finished. So it is no wonder why I feel that there will be a missing piece to my day tomorrow, when I don't pick up this book and get lost in its pages. Tonight, for the first time in 4 years, I finished a book, front to back. and I did it in 6 days.

I think new years resolutions are so terribly misleading. I find it merely impossible to reply to someone with a straight face when they declare their resolution. The faith part is not missing, I have faith in people, and I hope for people, but it is how blind they look when they exuberantly declare "MY new years resolution...", could you get any tackier? If you really wanted to do something why did you wait until new years? and if it's something that means a lot to you and you needed this day and this cliche tradition to do it, then give yourself a little credit and don't fall into that crowd of herd following bimbos by declaring it and thinking anyone is going to think any better of you because you have a resolution. Actually DO something, FINISH something, ACCOMPLISH something, then lets f-ing celebrate!

I am so proud of my accomplishment. For reading, for getting lost in this text, for laying in the park under the sun and taking a hour of my day to dive headfirst into unknown waters. For using my "airplane time" to  come full circle with my newly found obsession; with this book and its teachings. I hope that I read more, I have always hoped this, however I am not one to have a mere second of relaxing time to get lost in a book. I am also far to picky when it comes to what I read to find enough books that I could actually make it through. The smell, the cover, the binding, the pages, the font, the format.. among other things are the factor that go into what I pick up, sit down and spend quality time with. If i don't feel like the book could be loyal to me, like I could be to it, then I simply can't get through it.

As I have praised this book for how great I think it is to many people now, I am not sure others will find the same excitement in it. I read the inside cover, at a time, when reading this fictional but very possibly non-fictional story could have been very damaging to me and my mental stableness. It is no wonder why I waited, contemplated and waited some more on purchasing it and starting it. The time is perfect, everything happens for a reason. <3

to match the pillows i made last week <3

Fulfillment is a lot easier said than done these days. today. today was not fulfilling. i suppose days like today are needed to make tomorrow that much better. but what if there was no tomorrow, would i be happy with what i did today? no. i guess the point makes itself then.

I am confused as to why i wanted so badly to return, there is nothing here for me. I can't keep doing this. It will surely be damaging in the long run. I am already planning my escape. Planning to vanish sooner than later.


thought: its sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew.


I want to be so many things. New things flash into my head everyday. I need to make a master plan on how to successfully be every one of those things.

a trend that seems to be happening consistently is a closeness. a tighter bond that I have ever felt before. An honesty... understanding... openness... an unbreakable tie that only gets tighter as lifes journey kicks into full gear. A ridiculous unconditional love that keeps me sane, keeps me believing, keeps me inspired.

a pessimist is an optimist with experience


profound words from a dove dark chocolate wrapper.

sara bareilles - king of anything

I have a new color scheme, for this new life im living.

..really i do. and i like them. things that happen accidently are always meant to be.



thought:
what would be so great about life if everything went as planned?

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Newest connection:

dissect this diagram, so much to be learned, so much to a pondered.

everyday is a new day to fall in love.

did you fall in love today?

i did.

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so close to being done.

just 2 sets of 2 black intersecting lines.

i completed lightbulbs too. 4 more painted to add to the existing 4. i have 8 left to paint.

 

to do:

MAP

NECKLACE

QUILT? PILLOWS?

CLOTHES!

VELLUM CHANDIE

so much morrreeeee and so little time offffffff